Ever get that feeling you should have been Dear Abby? Not me.. I love to think but my thoughts are kind of strange.. So I write them down and then they become stranger.
I was just recalling the wonderful day with my grandchildren. I awoke at 5 am the morning we went to the arboretum and to see where paw works.
We laughed so hard that day. And I noticed how we have gone from them needing simple things done for them to just wanting to share time with me. It seemed like they were more helpful to me than I was to them.
Our day went very quickly. Addie,
Zander and Gabe are such loving kids.. Full of hugs and contain kisses beyond belief and humor to keep my days full.. Events and blessings I recall from time to time that brighten my days. These children are my daughters.
The day was so fun. They showed up around 10 that morning and then ran to the pantry for breakfast at
Nana and paw's.. For Addie it was
Campbell's Beef Vegetable soup but for Gabe it is always
Campbell's Chicken Noodle
Os soup.
Zander fed off of mine and his conversation.. He always talks endlessly with me.. And laughter any mother, father, sister, brother,
Nana, paw or friend can not help but fall in love with Z
ander's laughter. He is sunshine.. His thoughtfulness and generosity of spirit is rare...You can always find Z
ander in the midst of a crowd but not because he needs that but because others are drawn to him.. He is
consistent in his kindness and it is not for what he can gain but for what he can give.. It's like watching a huge crowd of tiny little givers when you have the honor of watching these little children.. That is what you see come out around Z
ander.. Hearts full of joy over giving of self.. It is amazing..
While we were at the Arboretum I watched Z
ander peacefully, yet playfully walking through the park. I thought about Jesus as a boy.. I wondered if what I was seeing in my grandson was just a portion of what and who Jesus was and did as a small boy, a child and one that loves to spread that joy and love...During my observation of Z
ander there was never a point where I felt less value or like there was any sin about me what so ever.. This little boy holds a special gift.. And even if he were not my grandson, I think I would still see this gift.. And know I was in the presence of someone very special to God and others..
Addie knows I am prefect (as perfect as I can be)..Yet if I listen closely, her security in these ideas of me are becoming less sure. She use to believe I could move the sun and now, she knows I do well to move a stone. That is how we change and grow. At one time others know everything, to no one knows much. Still I know that this is the wonder of Addie finding herself. Turtles, animals and living creatures are where her spirit comes to life in it's fullness and total service to achieve something more.. And here again, it is not for herself that she loves these blessings..She just clings to them because that is her nature to do so..
Gabe, oh my honest Gabe.. He hit the door that morning telling me I was old. If I grunt, he asks me if I am going to die now...I'm hoping this is a stage and not something he knows with surety is going to happen any time soon.. He reminds me of my father. I feel many times when I am with him and watching his little mind work I am seeing my father as a little boy. Gabe loves to love and wants to understand so many things while he walks this earth. His joy is not found in any one thing but in all things.
Gabe is a good study.. He thinks and asks things few of us have the courage to ask for fear of well, sounding silly.. His questions are really deep and maybe they are funny because they don't have a simple answer and some I can't answer.. He does make me think..For instance, when his pet died and his pet was buried in the ground under dirt, he inquired how can that pet be in heaven? Simple for me but to him that is hard to understand. But try to really explain that. Where is heaven and what is his pet doing there? Some believe that pets are put here for our enjoyment and haven't a spirit or mind and aren't in heaven. Their
existence is dependant upon the pleasure they bring us.. Yet they were created before man was. Gabe has very good questions and ones that make me really look at my answers more deeply.. He is beyond simple. He wants more than just an answer that comes down through the ages. Another words, he wants more than just because someone told him this. He wants to know why his pet is in heaven, what that pet is doing there, where heaven is, how come his pet's body is in the dirt and what was the reason for his pet to have to leave him to go some place his pet doesn't even know anyone? How many times have I asked or thought these same things? But because I haven't the truth about them I just go with the "because" answer.. Yes it is trust and faith I hold dear and near but in order to have these must I give up truth and knowledge? Gabe makes me think about this. If my only purpose is to be God's then why must I even be here? And if that is the case, why not just be given one simple fact "because God said", instead of a whole book filled with parables and lessons? Perhaps it is to help us arrive at the truth which contains questions because of those like Gabe..
I find gifts from each of my
grandchildren.. Blessings greater than laughter.. Feelings deeper than love. And more honesty without
regards to loyalty to family. The Bible says you must be as little children in order to see God.. It also states to let the children come unto Jesus and to not hinder them.. Of course, the Bible also tells us not to remain as little children..And to correct children.. So what part is not to remain as a child? What needs correcting? Perhaps we must remain full of joy, play in the sand and enjoy what God gave unto each of us.. Do we look at one another not looking for fault but looking at the treasure that is Gods in each of us? How many children have you seen that find fault in much of anything unless it is melted ice cream?? And when a child sees the trial others bear do they not run to help in those trials? They learn faults and wrongs through our training.. Jesus sat and broke bread with his betrayers knowing all the time what they would do to him.. Why are we told to love our enemy yet our best friends are those that we believe are understanding of us? And if we are God's, who is our enemy? Especially when we know His son sat and broke bread with what we see as His enemies? He even returned to those same ones.
If there is a time for all things under heaven isn't there also a reason? Which things are not under heaven??
This has made me tired now.. I think I will take a short nap and recall the special time at the Arboretum with my
grandchildren and how really pure at heart they are..
Thank you Mandy for your help in me being able to post..There are many blessings I love to write about, And many that are the reasons for those blessings:)